♔ : MUSE PREFERENCES.

PLEASE REPOST, DON’T REBLOG.

^{open curtains / closed blinds ; stray dog / house cat ; people / pets ; outside / inside ; half-empty / half-full ; tv / radio ; sing / dance ; shoes / sandals ; cash / credit ; hike /drive / fly (I feel as though this one is a lil situational. I’m not going to hike to Boston from fuckening New Mexico); casual / elegant ; center / corner (my first thought was brownie pieces so) ; sword / shield ; airplane / boat ; fizzy / flat ; garnished / plain ; extra salt / extra pepper ; spicy / mild ; record player / digital media (Contractually not allowed to touch this) ; opaque / transparent ; white lies / complete truth (The only lies I tell are anything but harmless ) ; blunt / subtle ; loud/ silent ; books / music (it’s called a soundtrack) ; familiar / new ; youth / experience ; Spoon/fork&knife- SPORK WITH A KNIFE EDGE YEAH ; knife / baseball bat ; space / ocean ; bow & arrow / blow dart ; love at first sight / slow burn ; freckles / dimples ; long lashes / long fingers ; soft lips / sensitive neck ; slow dance / intimate conversation.}

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Messenger Did Poorly in School

In fact, she never actually graduated high school which, though not uncommon in general was highly looked down upon from people in her particular community. Her older brother went on to get his doctorate in biology and become a professor, so most people just kinda ignored her perceived failure or dismissed her as the black sheep in the family.

This is one of Messenger’s biggest, if not THE biggest, sources of frustration and self esteem issues. The funny thing was that, in the few classes she did well in, Messenger EXCELLED. In classes she didn’t excel in, she just managed to fail or D at best. This is a little annoying. Especially since, surprise, surprise, she is later diagnosed with several comorbid learning disabilities and general anxiety disorder. Part of why she didn’t graduate was that, being so anxious and frustrated with school based education, she threw herself more into her job, reading, and ecological studies with her childhood friend. This meant she started showing up less and less, or only to the classes she did well in.

With help and support from coworkers, and teleportation to schools that aren’t in Teuford, she manages to get her GED before she turns 30.

Edit: Learning disorders from our current language= ADHD innatentive and NVLD

Messenger early in her career: Oh jeepers I gotta be careful not to spill these little incidental things I know about mercs to them!

Messenger by 1970: [spitting blood] Sir you could eat my fucking spleen in front of my fucking eyes and you’d still get more fuckin intel out of a pet rock than I’m gonna fucking give you.